sunny days, stormy nights

i am very happy and content these days and i am loving this feeling. i spent four days at my sister's with the kids. we held our annual garage sale. sister had cleaned out her attic and she had so many baby clothes, it was a little overwhelming. we did pretty good our first day. i had a large santa for sale and we posed with it around the garage sale. we were laughing so hard, but soon after our picturing taking someone came and bought our santa. we were a little sad to see it go. the pictures are up on facebook if you want to see them. on our second day we were rained out. so i say to sister, why don't we take our baby stuff to once upon a child. so after drying the clothes and packing up the car we left. we had two hampers, three baskets full of clothes, plus a high chair, jumper, and toys. all they bought was the high chair, jumper and a small basket of clothes. sister was not happy. i was a little surprised but oh well, at least we tried. anywho, this once upon a child in wyoming, mi is awesome. they had great stuff. i was able to get all of holly's polo shirts for school next year. on our way home we stopped to pick strawberries. it was so nice, just the two of us laughing and talking! Sunday we celebrated brenna's birthday. it was a beautiful day but i had taken two tyenlols (500 mg) each and i was so drowzy that i fell asleep in ethan's bed.
on monday holly started her summer religious education classes. she will be making her first communion next spring. the program is just awesome! in the fall she and i will attend classes together for further preparation for her first communion. being in second grade is so exciting. your not so much a little kid, you have more responsiblities and then at the end of the school year you make your first communion. i am just so happy for all that holly will experience this year!!
so you're wondering what my stormy night is... jay is laid off. he could be placed in another plant but it's just a waiting game now. i have much hope that everything will work out. sister has been a big support and God is leading our way!

can i scream

i'm living in a pickle jar and i can't get out. is it just me or has the cost of living (can you believe there is a cost to just live) gone up, no skyrocketed. is it just my area or what? jay's pay has not gone up and nor will it go up anytime soon. ford has taken from their employees bonuses, raises and "the cost of living" pay has been cut because the cost of living has not gone up. oh really ford? may i come live in your ivory tower? the everyday things are just getting too much. when i think of all that needs to be paid and what won't get paid i almost start to shake. we got into a pinch a few months ago with my traffic ticket and our water bill. now i am scrambling to catch up. never in my married life have i come so close to going to a food pantry. but i wouldn't qualify anywho. how in the hell does sista stretch a dollar to make it two? how in the hell can i keep treading water when i am so tired?
this has been a word from nicole