sad

we are less than two weeks from christmas and less than three weeks from new years but i am dreading jan. 13. jan. 13 was the due date for the baby i miscarried in june. i used to think about the miscarriage daily, now it is just every now and then. sometimes it hurts and sometimes it doesn't. i hope i am not aware of any dates in jan. i just want the month to go smoothly by with no sadness or happiness if that is what it takes to get me their that month.

i am thinking of blogging daily come jan. 1, 2011, kinda like julie in the movie and book julie and julia. i think if i blogged daily i would write about obama, ford, food prices, books and motherhood. maybe even in that order. lol i do have alot to say but no one is ever around to hear me.

this has been a word from nicole